PAIN

It's been awhile since i wrote in my blog..yep..ntahla..bz kot...

or maybe there's too much in my mind smpai x larat nk 2lis...

these past few days, i've been having this feeling...rase sakit yg teramat...

puncanya?

mestilah sbb insan yg bergelar lelaki
x dituju pd semua lelaki

hanya yg berkaitan

this one particular guy

Why do i have to like u so much?

a lot?

ape yg awk ade?

Why do i have to care for you so much?

awk x mntak pon kn?

yeke?

IDK

sometimes

i feel like I really know him

but most of the time

I felt

LOST

CONFUSED

SAD

macam sekarang

I'm restraining myself from sending him a Good Nite msg as always

but then

because of my messages

he said I am his BEST FRIEND

I read that message again n again

just to make sure

he did

tapi

best friend should be really close kn?

like my besties

was it any difference

becoz he's a guy?

 knape perlu mengaku sy BEST FRIEND klu x mksudkn cmtuh?

ke I am being over sensitive?

NTAHLAH

x pernah ade jawapan

yg pasti

I feel like RUNNING AWAY from all this

and this time

no turning back

I have to be strong

REALLY STRONG

coz i've tried so many times

and I kept coming back for him

whenever he needs 

HELP

SUPPORT

COMFORT

what do I get back in the end?

IDK

wait.

It's my false.

I'm being too nice

even HE said so

'U baik sgt kt I'

Is that a bad thing?

IDK

if I am given a choice right now

I'll choose that 

I'll never knew him

So I will never have to feel this

PAIN