A confused mind.

I'm home people!

but I'm going back to segamat 2morrow *sigh*

bile ckp sal segamat

i remember someone

i like

idk

what makes me feel so attracted to him

what will happen if  

i tell

him

i like him?

gosh.

dat is just one problem

i've got another one

there is this guy

who happens to like me

he's nice,seriously

but

i don't have feelings for him

what to do?

I am sooo so confused 

should I just go with the guy who likes me?

or

should i tell the guy i like and wait for his response?

damn

why do I have to like another person but like by another person?

(=.=)

PAIN

It's been awhile since i wrote in my blog..yep..ntahla..bz kot...

or maybe there's too much in my mind smpai x larat nk 2lis...

these past few days, i've been having this feeling...rase sakit yg teramat...

puncanya?

mestilah sbb insan yg bergelar lelaki
x dituju pd semua lelaki

hanya yg berkaitan

this one particular guy

Why do i have to like u so much?

a lot?

ape yg awk ade?

Why do i have to care for you so much?

awk x mntak pon kn?

yeke?

IDK

sometimes

i feel like I really know him

but most of the time

I felt

LOST

CONFUSED

SAD

macam sekarang

I'm restraining myself from sending him a Good Nite msg as always

but then

because of my messages

he said I am his BEST FRIEND

I read that message again n again

just to make sure

he did

tapi

best friend should be really close kn?

like my besties

was it any difference

becoz he's a guy?

 knape perlu mengaku sy BEST FRIEND klu x mksudkn cmtuh?

ke I am being over sensitive?

NTAHLAH

x pernah ade jawapan

yg pasti

I feel like RUNNING AWAY from all this

and this time

no turning back

I have to be strong

REALLY STRONG

coz i've tried so many times

and I kept coming back for him

whenever he needs 

HELP

SUPPORT

COMFORT

what do I get back in the end?

IDK

wait.

It's my false.

I'm being too nice

even HE said so

'U baik sgt kt I'

Is that a bad thing?

IDK

if I am given a choice right now

I'll choose that 

I'll never knew him

So I will never have to feel this

PAIN

my heart got struck dude!

Seriously.I don't know what happen.

It seems I really like this somebody.Yeah,Hell.

Because of this guy, i can let go of my feelings for my dearest ex. miracle huh?

I don't know why.My heart keeps telling me that this GUY is the one. 

can our heart be trusted, people? i wish i've the answer.

coz right now, i'm feeling damn confused!

 

to be truth, i don't really know if he's into me or not.ooh. (-_-')

right now, he seems to be in a bad condition.

he's trying to forget his ex-girlfriend. is it possible??

i mean, they've been 2gether for 4 years man!!

will i stand a chance?? who knows? only GOD knows.

and i sure hope HE, THE ALMIGHTY will guide me trough this. 

wish me luck people!

right now, i think i'll just go with the flow. is there even a flow?? might be,IDK.

GOSH . why is it so hard?  

It's quite painful waiting for something uncertain.

if i can just tell him. but I won't. yeah. I won't.

Let's just play safe. He needs me and I'm here for him. That's what matters. isnt' it??

OK.ENOUGH SAID. 

it's 12 a.m. and my part as a caring friend has come!

better keep my mouth shut! bye people! 

T.T.F.N. (T_T) 

DUITKU ABESH WEYH!

HADOI!Knape tyme cmni baru dpt msg de latihan??

OK.xtually, I ade band practice.tp..xpe.skali skala jd jht! (adik2,jgn contohi ye?)

hahaha.watever!I dont care!cheh.KONON je.

kecut gak x trun nih.OK.Lantaklah!

Weekend yg baru je lpas nih. I pegi JB U!

X plan pon!tp HASIDAH a.k.a SID ajk pegi umah dy..I follow jelah.

Segan jgn ckaplah kn.Malu memglah teramat.HEHE.

tebalkan muka sudah.Keep Smiling.Itu yg penting KWN2.

Oh,tp..FAMILY SID teramatlah COOL!x tipu!

mlm JUMAAT, SID da bwk g DANGA.

klu da namenye SID,ape lg?? KARAOKE gile!

tp..I x nyanyilah.MALU!HAHA.

Lynla 5 lagu..SID n NANA yg nyanyi. (oh,Nana adik SID)

haha.I kaco2 SID jek. SUke kaco dy sal M.(sapekah???)

GUGUGU!

Hahaha.klu taw sape,sep2 aje..x pasal SID bunuh sy! *sengeh cm kerang busuk*

OK2.back to d story. 

Jln2 kt Festive Mall, I bjaye buat SID beli selendang POLKA DOT! (utk dinner BOMBA)

I on the other hand, end up buying NOTHING.HEHE.

KONON savinglah. HARAM.

klau da namenye masuk JUSCO x kirelah kt mane (this tyme BUKIT INDAH)

I mesti kluar duit! (ampun IBU!)

Pantanglah nmpak CARDIGAN.mate nih melilau je.HAISH.

At last..I end UP buying a striped CARDI (purple + white) + PURPLE LONG TEE.

GOSH!WHY do i seem to be ATTACHED to PURPLE so much? (ok.dat's another story)

LUCKILY.hari AHAD, nk balik SEGAR-MAT terchenta nih, parents SID anta.

dptla saving sket.BARULAH KAN. (semalam x sedar)

tp..we went to BATU PAHAT 1st.ade wedding.

Muke ni tebalkan jelah. 

Nasiblah d whole of SID's family tersangatlah SPORTING!

Bile kt kampung..kami pon jdlah kanak-kanak riang. X pcaye??

See for yourself!

gaya b4 melompat!hehe

lompatan yg bjaya dibuat oleh sid!

bersame cikgu Murni!same kn muke dak kcik ni ngn ckgu Murni?

kanak-kanak Ribena beraksi


hehehe
sng kate..bez jgk jd knak-kanak kn?
x de bende sgt nk pk
mslh pon xde..haish.
ape2pon..ckuplah stakat nih..
yg penting DUITKU SUDA ABESH!

T.T.F.N. (^_^)

Ganu Kite!!

Ok..I know I should be stdying MAF220..

tp xpe...nk cari mood dulu..hehe (alasan kn?)

TERENGGANU..at last..smpai jgk..

dlu pegi kecik lg...ape pn x engat..sian kn?

ni sbb da besa (mmg besa pn.) n g ngn kwn2..

trip 2 jd seronok! (klu ngn fmily pn bez,xyah kuar duit sndiri)

wlaupn trpaksa tydo dlm dorm beramai-ramai

still rase fun!

But,seriously...memg penat dlm bus lame2...

mule2 bertolak about 3.30 p.m. ari jumaat 2..of cozla havoc gile!

ade yg menyanyi bagai..gelak2..

muke excited je masing2!x caye?

jom tgk shots nih!

 

he..ni sy n iera..kami hepy dlm diam je..hehe

ha..mule2 je muke cm2....

da lame2...muke cmni la yg kluar..

 

haha..ok..shots for the 1st day ckupla kot...

lpas aktiviti tydo dlm bus..tau2 da kne trun mkn...

mamai2..trun2..dgar org ckp loghat len..alamak!!ktne nih??

melilau jg cari signboard..tp x jmpe...

upenye..kt Bukit Besi..da smpai TERENGGANU lah!!!

engatkn da x lame dlm bus..upenye amek mase berjam jgk nk smpai Kuala Terengganu ek.. (baru tau)

at last...smpai jgk kt homestay kami...Dara Inn..

2nd day..org kate,bhgia cme sekejap je..

btollah tuh!pg2 bute da nitemare!!

punyela rmai penghuni,toilet available cume 2!

pergh.mmg pnjgla beratur!da 2, air plak xde kn...haish!

tp..bjaye jgk mandi even hampir jd org last an.. (iera last!haha!)

ok..enough nitemare..breakfast da sdap n free lak tuh! (nasi lemak u know!)

tibe2.....bus UiTM yg mmbawa kami x bley start meyh!!! (malang lg!)

luckily, ade another bus yg mmg bwk klas lg 1.....nasib baek,kn?

ha,b4 terlupe..ni shots b4 tau bus 

 rosak!

                                                                                                                            

 

anak dara camwhoring depan Dara Inn...

bile tau bus rosak..jdnye cmnih!

jejaka2 handalan DIA..haha (fyi,bus sket pn x gerak)

heheh...bile bus tinggal 1,plan awal nk ke Arfa Batik x jd....

so..acara di2kar kpd aktiviti mengeringkan poket!!

gurls sukela mende cmnih..shopping tymelah katekn..hihi (tp i know this 1 guy yg gile shopping.ooh?!)

Pasar Payang pn jadilah...yg penting shopping!

Jln punye jalan..smpai nk tercabut kaki rase..belinye ape sgt...

mine-gula tarik, buah keranji, asam jawa, kain batik 4 my mom, gula srg burung (sgt bnyk tepung!)

chyda-gula tarik 3 paket (buat wawa hyper!), buah keranji, asam jawa, kaftan n Mr. PANDA (menyampah i)

sarah-serunding daging, t-shirt terengganu etc.

dewi-i x engatlah dewi.SORRY!

tp..yg peliknye...duit kami tetap abes! (cmne tuh?kami pn x phm)

dat nite ade BBQ...tepi pantai babe!
adela GUYS yg men guitar n menyanyi tuk GF....sgt sweet!!!
(2 yg berangan nk BF pndai main gitar.ANYONE??)
hehe..well, enjoy these shots!

sian iera..muke suku je!sory syg!

at last..iera bjaye enterframe!


last day..sbb da serik toilet pnuh...
bgunla awl n cop cpat2...hehe..
tp kne bebel ngn CHAEDA sbb mandi lame! (maap ye?)
b4 check out n vist Arfa Batik, sempat lg bgmbar!mari tgok!

muke kami yg sgt2 suci..hehe

kami geng baju hitam..hitam kn menawan?


hehe..klu sy,iera n chy cbuk bgmbr..adela kwn ni cbuk nek kuda padi.. (nasibla dy kecik)
tp..i'm sure..kuda tuh ttap semput!hehe..
bile da puas snap sane sini..kami troskn prjalanan ke kilg2 yg sptutnye smlm lg pegi..
tp bile kt kilang nih..attention da xde! (except Arfa Batikla)
masing2 da mule rase penat...naek bus cpat2 n tydo!
yg tau..bile smpai Muadzam utk dinner!lapar meyh!
bile da kenyang, gmbr lglah!
then, bus tros la jln until kami reach UiTM at about 11.30 p.m..pheww.

THE END

ha..nila adegan tydo b4 smpai UiTM..pnat sgt..

T.T.F.N. (^_^)