hari ni post pasal Ibu (:

Hello gowjez and handsomes. We meet again. Miss me? HAHAHA. ta boleh blah kan? perasan feymes jap.

ok,ok, back to the title. Hari ni nak buat entry pasal ibu. Ye, Ibu saya. Kenapa ibu? bukan ayah? sebab aku ta sayang ayah aku ke? CHOI! mulut jaga sket.

I LOVE them both very much okeh. Cuma hari ni saje je nak buat entry pasal ibu dulu. Mom's 1st right? Aku percaya, semua orang dalam universe ni sayang ibu mereka. Betol ta? Jangan jawab ta, sekeh kang. Tapi, biasalah bila da nama manusia, anak, bila kata sayang memang sayang, tapi kita still buat salah pada ibu kita kan? Ke aku je? Ha, ta kisahlah kalau korang ta nak mengaku. 

Aku mengaku kadang-kadang benda yang aku buat sama ada diketahui atau ta diketahui oleh ibu for sure boleh lukakan hati dia. Tapi macam mana sekalipun kita buat tahi salah, kasih sayang sorang ibu tiada gantinya, sebab apa? sebab dia masih terima aku, layan aku dengan manja, belikan aku macam-macam. Selalunya benda yang aku nak, even mula-mula ibu ta setuju, tapi eventually aku akan dapat jugak. Nampak kan kasih sayang seorang ibu macam mana? Dia pernah cakap "tak apalah ibu ta dapat pakai mahal-mahal asal anak ibu dapat". Dia bukan memerli, tapi dia ikhlas. 

* tears in my eyes right now*

kadang-kadang situation hidup aku macam ni. Serius.

kenapa aku cakap situation hidup aku macam ni? sebabnya ibu ala-ala mak rapunzel dalam tangled ni cuma ibu ta berniat jahat macam dia la. She's so overprotective. Yes, you can ask my BFFs if you don't believe me. Sometimes, rasa tertekan jugak. Why? because I'm 20 and soon 21 but still i'm not allowed to sleep over my friend's house or even ride a car with them. Kalau pasal naik kereta kawan, my Ibu will say lesen baru, ibu ta percaya kalau budak-budak bawak kereta ni. Mulalah episod buat muka empat belas aku. Dalam hati mulalah kenapa orang lain boleh, kenapa aku ta boleh?

But, when I think it over and over, it is because she loves me so much. She doesn't want anything bad to happen to me. Mungkin sekarang aku ta rasa, ta faham tapi later in life bila da ada anak sendiri maybe aku akan faham dan maybe aku akan bertindak macam ibuku jugak. Who knows? Somehow, kadang-kadang bila ke'devil'an kedegilan aku datang, aku buat jugak. I mean ride a car with my friends and my Moncet. I can't help it. I want to tell her, but it will just make her worried so much that she'll fall sick. Ibu, kalau bab anak-anak dia, risau sampai boleh sakit-sakit. So, i'm stuck in between. If I tell her, she'll worried sick. But if I didn't tell her, I'm such a despicable daughter. T_T 

But, often I chose the latter and in my heart and mind hoping one day my mom will forgive me for whatever I did behind her back.

Ibu, adik dah nak masuk 21 tahun. I'm not your little girl anymore, but I will always want to be your little girl in your eyes. Sometimes, I wish that I would be taken away 1st, not my mother, because I can't imagine living without the people I LOVE. No matter how hard we argue, we fight, I always LOVE you because there's no one in the whole world that could ever replace you.

Even one day when I'm married, I'm putting you 1st.

p/s : kenapa ta de gambar Ibu? because she hates her picture to be taken. She'll say " I look terrible". No mother, you're my angel. I miss you damn much :(

t.t.f.n (~_~)